#57 I’m trying to get in shape. If I lose any weight in the process, then that is a plus.
#58 I actually have a lot of insecurities that recently made me extremely depressed. Maybe I do want to lose weight. I just don’t want to lose it in an unhealthy way. #59 A while back I wouldn’t eat a. because I wasn’t hungry and b. because I wasn’t happy with how I looked. I was really scared for myself mostly because I felt really depressed and weak. I didn’t know who to turn to that wouldn’t judge me, and Mimi helped me climb out of that horrible pit.
#60 Working at Walmart is great and all, but the angry customers[1. The ones that get frustrated with me, get mad at me, are sarcastic/rude, etc.] remind me of someone, tend to make me feel like a complete idiot and just flat out bring back memories (which makes me have flashbacks). It isn’t fun when this happens, and it honestly just makes me want to walk out right then and there. For example, if I am in the speedy checkout and I ask if something is Person B’s whilst Person A is doing their credit card thingy, then Person B replies with something similar (if not the exact same thing) to, “Are you blind? I just set this down here. Are you dumb? Are you even old enough to work here?” -.- I am SO sorry that I look young. It isn’t my fault. And that is mostly the guys that come through the lines. The women are usually much nicer. >.>
#61 Working at Walmart has taught me that a lot of what happened at my first job (Sonic, 2007) was not right at all and that I could have spoken out. But I was only a sixteen year old who was raised a sheltered life, so it wasn’t entirely my fault, and everyone around me in the immediate household just acted like it was normal for me to do. No one ever told me working 60 hours per week for an hourly wage of $5.15 was wrong. No one ever told me I shouldn’t mix my personal life with my working life. No one ever told me anything about working. In reality, my life is technically more difficult than learning how to work the register and actually understand how to be a cashier. Yet I am still struggling to figure it out, and I still do not understand why people my age care about clubbing when I care about long-term goals and saving my money and whatnot. If you breaking a nail is the story of your life, then the story of my life is leaving the driveway gate open at night and allowing the donkeys to get onto the road, then having to chase them later.
#62 I am looking at Internet plans so I can have my own Internet here. I am thinking about going with AT&T or Verizon, but I don’t know if either is available out here yet. I have read both positive and negative reviews about both, and I’m kind of leaning more toward AT&T. I need to make sure I have enough money to pay the first four months of it, though, before I actually buy it and have it installed to prevent me not having the money soon after[2. Because I like to be financially stable. Spending money isn’t something I do often, whether I have it or not.].
#64 I have barely spent any time on the computer lately. My weeks have mostly been consisting of working, eating, showering, sleeping and talking. My life has literally changed drastically, but I know it has changed for the best. I finally get to be the person who is inside of me and eagerly trying to break out. I really like it.
#65 I’m working on a vlogging series called “Liza vs. Liz”. I’ll be sure to post here when it starts. I think I am going to try to have new videos posted for it biweekly or something. I don’t really care if people watch them or not, but if it’s liked, then I’ll make more. I’m pretty sure I’ll just keep using my YouTube, too — sabbystabby.
#66 Because I don’t use the Internet much anymore, 6birds is going to be having some longer posts sometimes. xD Enjoy them. 😛
#67 I am going to be purchasing a few new domain names soon. Maybe this February or March. 6birds.net will be renewed soon. This time I am going to renew it for two years. As for the other domain names, we will see how that goes. I think I’m renewing ously.me and beefly.me when the time comes along, but not kindlie.info. 😛
#68 NaNoWriMo quickly became NoMoNaNoWriMo for me. Oh well. I have a job now, and my life is being turned around. My days feel quite long, but that’s okay. I am making money, and things will be stable pretty soon (hopefully/hopefully more hour-wise than anything).